Cry Out

We just received news this week that our 5 y.o. may need brain surgery. Brain Surgery. I knew if I worked from home I would drive myself crazy thinking too much. I made myself drive to work the past two days knowing it was best to stay distracted until his doctor appointment at the end of the week.

To keep my mind from wandering I knew I needed to do something to stay focused on what was important – to stay focused on Him. I always have Christian radio on in the car. For those that don’t know I am a musical person and I love how music has a way of drawing out and portraying emotion in ways that simple words never can. Have you ever listened to songs so intently that you just hung on every word as if your life depended on them? As if they were your next breath because you knew you couldn’t get that breath of life without something to keep you focused? Never in my entire life have lyrics to songs ministered to me the way they have when I have been alone in my car this week during my 2+ hours of commute time each day.

Although it was definitely not the only one that got me through the last few days; this song seemed to come on every time I was in the car. I never thought much of the song honestly. It’s not that it was bad – just not my style and not something that touched me much…until this week. Suddenly I realized what this song was all about. Suddenly I felt the deep pain and desperation that must have been experienced in order to write such an emotional song. Every time I heard it in the car I sang it to the Lord with all of the passion in my heart and laid it all at the cross. Tomorrow’s follow up appointment with the neurosurgeon is terrifying - but I know he hears our cries.

 I just want to thank each and every one of you for your calls, thoughts, prayers and love you have shown us the last couple of days. Thank you for walking this journey alongside us. We need you all.