Daddy's Prayer

There was a time we did not know if we could have kids (story here). ((Sigh)) God’s ways are so mysterious… 

Psalm 127:3-5

 ³ Children are a heritage from the LORD,
   offspring a reward from him.
⁴ Like arrows in the hands of a warrior
   are children born in one’s youth.
⁵ Blessed is the man
   whose quiver is full of them.
They will not be put to shame

 

We thank the Lord we were blessed with children. We named our first child for the meaning - “gift of God” in Hebrew. It definitely puzzles or confuses me that we could come to the place we are at now that he is 4 ½ years old. The child we consider God’s gift is also one with autism. Allowing myself to go through the emotions my instinct is to be angry and wonder how God can give such an amazing gift as our child but give him this curse? Why Lord?

As a father I am having such difficulty following where God is leading us on this road. I guess I could say I am having trouble trusting God in all of this. Just like the man in Mark 9:24 who said “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” I am similar with my trust in God. I just need to remember

Proverbs 14:26

 

 ²⁶ Whoever fears the LORD has a secure fortress,
   and for their children it will be a refuge.

Philippians 4:6-7

⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Sometimes I get upset and sometimes I don’t feel it – but in my heart I know why. M.J. is a very special person God has placed in our lives to teach us more about Him.

 
Lord give us strength and peace. We know that you alone are God and you will not forsake us. We ask that you help us to be strong for our children, be brave through the trials, and help us find Your light shining through these little lives. Praying that not only will M.J.’s life teach our family, but teach many others about Your love Lord.