Saturday, December 24, 2011

Gift of God

Finally, after a year and a half of trying, and fertility treatments and within 2 months of preparing our field, we were very blessed in April of 2007 to find out we were expecting our first born. The treatments went flawlessly, even exceeding the doctor’s expectations for how well and how quickly it worked. It was official; we were going to be parents on or around January 26, 2008. Our field was getting rain.

My nine(ish) months of pregnancy of our first born went well. I only had very mild symptoms and I absolutely loved being pregnant. I will never forget the first time I felt the baby move. We were on the road in Heber as we were spending the weekend at our family cabin. I was about 17 weeks pregnant, and all of a sudden it felt like something did a summersault inside my tummy. It was the most amazing feeling in the world. Another moment I will never forget was when we were in our gender ultrasound and we found out it was a boy. Seeing the pride and excitement on my husband’s face was priceless. We hadn’t settled on a name yet, but in the car on the way home from the ultrasound Dan looked right at me and said “I’ve got it. His name should be “M.J.” …. I felt the same way; it was perfect. It was like we just “met” him and we knew he was meant to be an M.J. {his true name is omitted in order to practice internet safety for our children}
Months went on, and I felt great. I even managed (somehow) to only gain very minimal weight. We went in for a routine ultrasound around 32 weeks and they found the cord wrapped around M.J.’s neck. It is not uncommon, but this far into a pregnancy babies do not have much room to move and maneuver, so there was concern that he could tangle himself worse and put himself under stress. I was scheduled for NST (Non Stress Tests) weekly to monitor his heart and movements.  Week 33 he was fine, week 34 he was fine.

I hit 35 weeks and I began to feel very tired, and very sore. I knew he was moving so he was fine, and figured I was just getting to the home stretch that everyone tells me is the “uncomfortable phase”. It was the week before Christmas 2007 and I was in a Christmas musical production at church on Sunday (12/23). Everyone warned me not to overdo it and relax, but me being the Worship Leader’s assistant, and being so dedicated to the Lord’s work I told them I would be fine and proceeded to enjoy myself being involved in the program. Halfway through the program when the pastor was giving a short message I began to feel extremely exhausted, I got flush, and I was in a lot of pain. I remember going to the restroom and bending over in pain just praying out loud “Lord, please don’t let me go into labor. Not yet… not now!”
That afternoon we went home and I was exhausted. I crashed on the couch for probably over an hour. I woke up feeling amazing. He heard my prayer! I felt refreshed, I had energy! I even had motivation to get up and make cookies that evening. 

I remember sleeping well that night, and even thinking nothing of going into work. After all I was only 35 weeks. I must have just overdone it during the weekend (I told myself). It was Monday, Christmas eve at work and it was very quiet. I was very grateful because throughout the morning I increasingly got more pain. I was grateful when the manager told everyone that we could leave at noon since it was slow and the day before Christmas. I was more than ready to go home. Sparing you any details, let’s just say I got concerned and decided I needed to call the doctor as soon as I got home. I called Dan on the way home and while I was in the car I explained to him how I was feeling. I didn’t even make it 3 or 4 blocks from work when my water broke in the car. I stopped Dan mid-sentence and told him to meet me at the hospital. I got to the hospital about 12:30pm. My labor was quick, especially for a first baby. I remember the nurse checked me at one point and told me that I had a few more hours to go, that the doctor was going to another birth at a different hospital before she came to deliver M.J. Within 45 minute after that I will never forget the look on the nurse’s face when she realized that I was moments away from delivering and she had to race to get the doctor to turn around and come to my hospital first. What she predicted would take a few more hours (a normal timeframe for a first baby) took almost less than an hour.  He was ready and with M.J. being a premature baby at 35 weeks they needed the doctor ASAP.
It seemed like it took forever for the doctor to get there, although in reality it was probably only about 20-25 minutes. I remember her racing in, and literally throwing on the gown and gloves while she was already instructing the nurse what to do. Another moment I will never forget is when the doctor got her first good glimpse of M.J.’s head. She got a look of fear in her eyes yelled to STOP PUSHING and literally turned around for tools as if life depended on it. Dan didn’t get to cut the cord, and M.J. never cried when he came out. They wouldn’t tell us what was going on but I knew without hearing him cry and the nurses whisked him over to the table, put oxygen on him and just said “C’mon baby….C’mon baby”….then we heard a tiny whimper, and coughing. He never did fully cry, but he was okay. What we learned later was that the cord was around M.J.’s neck 3 times and cut off his oxygen supply when he was delivered. The doctor cut (the cord) him free to save him, and the nurses resuscitated him with the oxygen, etc.


A picture of MJ when he came home from NICU weighing 5 lbs 1 oz.
He was born at 9:34pm (only 9 hours of labor). Born at 35 weeks, 2 days – he was 6 lbs, 4 oz and 19 ¼ inches. He had a rough start into the world. He was born face up, and he had severe facial bruising. Because of the extra red blood cells from the bruising and the prematurity he ended up with severe jaundice and spent a day and a half in NICU. During his stint with jaundice he got down to 5 lbs 1 oz. He was so tiny we actually had to go out and get preemie clothes for him to wear for the first week or two. Yes, he had a rough start – but he was here – and he was healthy – and we were oh so grateful! God is so good. He gave us the most amazing blessing – M.J. – Our “Gift of God”.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Celebrate

God always provides the right amount of encouragement and good news just when you need it. We got some good news today that is a perfect Christmas present from God, and we are so grateful. For the first time Dan and I were able to look at each other with peace and joy and say..this is going to be the best Christmas in three years.


We decided we needed to celebrate with the family. We took the boys out for yogurt, and then drove around to look at Christmas lights. It was great family time, and although it may be just some yogurt and a drive that will be a day we will remember for a very long time.


Just remember to celebrate, and when you do so, celebrate with family and friends. It is easy to get caught up in the bad moments, the tough times. What makes life wonderful is when you recognize the blessing you do have, take the time to be grateful for them, and celebrate!


God Bless!

Preparing for Rain

When Dan and I got married in 2005, we knew there was a slight possibility, because of a condition that I have, that we would not be able to have children. Knowing of the possible difficult road ahead, we bathed it in prayer for months before we started “trying”.  There were months that were heartbreaking, and full of fear of seeing that negative test once again. I was terrified of the thought of never getting the opportunity to be a mother.  But we knew that no matter what the outcome, that it was God’s plan. We knew that somehow that God would prepare us for whatever road was ahead of us, with or without children.  

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

We had purchased a 4 bedroom house the year after we got married in anticipation of growing our family. We had even planned out which bedroom was going to be the “baby’s room”. But we still had our moments of discouragement and hopelessness, questioning whether or not God had parenthood in our future. There were nights I walked by that room, or would walk into it and just stare at the walls imagining little baby things and just praying to God that he would provide the opportunity for us to be parents. After months it just wasn’t happening, and we were getting tired and weary of letting our hopes up.
One night we were watching a movie at home:  “Facing the Giants”, a football movie (or so we thought). A movie that we were hoping could get our minds off of our current reality. It turned out that one of the story lines was about the high school football coach and his wife suffering from infertility. Seriously…can we not get away from this? There were pieces to that movie that we could relate to so closely and it took over our emotions. There was one particular line/scene in the movie that stuck out to both of us, like it was a divine message directly to us. I didn’t know where to go with it, but we felt God was definitely working something. The line(s) were (relating to the coach’s discouragement with what his purpose was):

Coach Taylor:                          (Surprised) Mr. Bridges!
Mr. Bridges :                           Revelation Chapter 3 says: We serve a God that opens doors that no one can shut, and he shuts doors that no one can open.

He says: Behold, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and not denied my name.

Coach Taylor, the Lord is not through with you yet. You still have an open door here, and until the Lord moves you, you’re to bloom right where you’re planted…

I just felt led to come and tell you that today. (leaves the office)

Coach Taylor:                          (Stands up and runs after Bridges) Mr. Bridges! Do you  
believe God told you to come tell me that?

Mr. Bridges:                            I do.

Coach Taylor               :           I admit to you I have been struggling. But I’ve also been
praying. I just don’t see Him at work here.

Mr. Bridges                 :           Grant. I heard a story about two farmers who desperately
needed rain. And both of them prayed for rain, but only one of them went out and prepared his field to receive it. Which do you think trusted God to send the rain?


Within hours after that movie I see Dan moving things around in the spare bedroom, and asking me about baby room colors, etc. I thought he was crazy. “Why are you doing this?”…”We are not pregnant yet, we don’t even know when/if it is going to happen?”…..to which Dan looked at me with a huge smile and amazing conviction “I am preparing our field.” ….It wasn’t just a movie to get our minds off of things. God was using it to remind us we needed to have faith. 

Psalm 27:14 (NIV)
14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.