Just when you least expect it, when you are in your “happy place” allowing yourself to enjoy things in life that God has blessed you with…the past creeps back in. Somehow, some way, out of some scattered recent events in my life it has brought up some challenges that I faced in my past that have been hurtful.
Although none of these situations were in any way related to those past experiences, it brought back memories of that pain. It hit me from nowhere; I thought those things were behind me. But the pain came back like it was just yesterday. I started the typical martyr mentality “Why me?”; “Why again?”; “Why now?”. Then I realized…why not? Obviously there is something that God is trying to teach me that maybe I didn’t quite get before? And so instead of asking why, I began to ask God “What”. “What do you want me to learn from this Lord?” I realized that the pain I was feeling was brought back for a reason. So whenever I found myself wallowing in the pain, I would stop and ask “What do you want me to learn Lord?”
Did He give me a straight answer and tell me exactly what I needed to know? Of course not, but in His own way in the last few days I can look back and see where He has inspired certain things to happen, to get my heart back in the right place.
1Peter 4:12-13 "Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ's sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy."
