Greater

Our family loves music. MJ especially loves music. There is something about it that seems to help him really connect with things, and connect with his emotions. We are very intentional about having time in our home where we just listen to music – music therapy. It helps MJ and JR with their communication, but it also helps them feel connected to us – our family not only bonds by singing music together, but it helps us re-focus on what is important.

You can bet every time we are in the car we are very intentional about what we listen to. Not that we always put CD’s in, but we make sure that the stations we listen to are always focused on the things we feel are important.  Each time we have been in the car and feel like we are facing some heavy stuff in life the music is that much more important. Often times you will hear the boys singing in the back seat to songs and it warms my heart so much.

The day we came home from the neurosurgeon with MJ’s brain surgery date scheduled we were in the car, but the music was not my focus. The fact that we had a surgery date was hitting Dan and me really hard. We tried everything we could to maintain our composure and stay strong for the boys. Knowing we were facing a 45 minute drive home in rush hour I had to take deep breaths and pray to hold my composure. But the music was just in the background and I wasn’t focusing on it like I probably should have been – just too many things running through my mind and my heart.

Then all of a sudden I hear MJ start singing in the back seat, and JR (in his mumbly attempt) joined in. The words and the fact that MJ (the one about to have brain surgery) was singing it – I knew immediately it was God.

You see – the song talks about God’s miracles. The fact that no matter what is going on in life – God will always prevail…ALWAYS. He is Greater, He is Stronger, He is higher than ANY other. It was a message from God alright, and he used MJ singing in the backseat to deliver it to our hearts.

That song has become a cherished part of our lives. It became our special family song. Each time we hear it, or play it, or sing it – I told myself (and was very intentional about making sure) that it was always to help MJ remember God WILL get us through. The truth is I knew we all needed to hear it.

Every time we hear it on the radio we turn it up and the whole family sings. I have it loaded on my phone. Every doctor appointment and even in pre-op the day of surgery….any time we need it – it is played…and we sing. Even before surgery when the outcome was unknown…Even now not knowing MJ’s prognosis….this song is our song. We sing it with greater feeling and conviction than any other.

It’s about God’s miracles. It’s about the fact that even in the troubled times God always wins. God is stronger than any other. Nothing can stand in the way with God on our side. Through these last few months this song and the message of Truth has been amazingly comfort to our family.

Tomorrow will be the first time I go back to singing vocals at our church since MJ’s surgery. I looked at the set list (list of songs) last week and saw who I was singing with and my heart skipped a beat…God was right here again reminding me of His miracles, and bringing everything back full circle.

How appropriate that 6 weeks after MJ’s surgery, and the first time I am back to singing praise and worship vocals at church – that this would be one of the songs in the set. How even more special that I get to sing it with one of my sweet friends Robin who answered the tug in her heart from the Lord to walk this journey closely with me at the hospital on surgery day. I couldn’t ask for a better way to sing praise to God, and Honor him for His miracle in my son.

If you see me crying through this song up there tomorrow- you will know why.